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Whoa We’re Half Way There…

I’m officially 20 weeks pregnant as of yesterday! Half way there!! 👏🏻

Good thing too! Because I hate being pregnant and I’m ready for it to be over. 😂

That being said, everything is going VERY well! We had our anatomy scan yesterday and everything is just perfect between the two of us. Well, aside from RJ being difficult and not showing us his toes and refusing to move into a better position to see his side profile more clearly. 😂

Other than that all of his major organs are accounted for and everything is working how it should be! As for me, my labs have been perfect every time and aside from slightly low blood pressure (which is very common in pregnancy due to increased blood volume) everything is progressing perfectly. Luke has been joking that apparently I’m really good at growing humans. Who would have thought?! Even if that is true at this point in time I am 100% certain that I never want to do this again.

Anyway, like I said, everything is great so far! I’m being taken care of exclusively by midwives but I did see an OB/GYN today, but for the weirdest reason. Today I asked the midwife if there was anything I needed to keep in mind, be aware of, or any potential issues because of my appendectomy scar.

I had an “old fashioned” appendectomy when I was 13, so I have a pretty decent scar that’s super puckered. So that would be the “dent” that you can see on my abdomen in the photo above”. And it puckered like that because instead of being stitched shut after the surgery, they left the incision open to drain so I had to pack it.

The midwife didn’t think it would be an issue but called the OB/GYN in just to look at it and confirm her thoughts on the matter. So I had 3 people touching/poking/prodding at my scar today if you count the fact that the ultrasound tech had to go over it with her wand to see everything. I HATE people touching it. I don’t even like touching it. 😂

But the OB/GYN said it shouldn’t be an issue, even if I have a c-section and if for whatever reason I do, she could fix it while she was in there. Hopefully that doesn’t end up being the case though! And if not they said I could have a plastic surgeon fix it, but that would require a surgery and Im just not about that life. 😂 So even knowing I have the option I don’t think I’ll be getting it “fixed” unless someone is already in there doing something else, like a c-section, but hopefully that won’t be the case and I’ll be able to deliver vaginally. And at this point there are literally no indicators that are saying that I shouldn’t be able to. 😊

But yeah, I literally saw a doctor yesterday just because I have a weird scar. 🤷🏻‍♀️😂

I’ve also started reading the book Nurture: A Modern Guide To Pregnancy, Birth, Early Motherhood — and Trusting Yourself and Your Body. I’m liking it so far, although I’ve skipped over a lot of the first part of the book. It talks a lot about journaling, meditation, learning to listen to your body, and things like that. Ironically I’ve already learned to do all of that have have read a lot about all of that in running related books. I’m especially in tune with listening to and trusting my body, a very useful skill that I’ve learned through running. I just think it’s interesting how much running has taught me and made me capable of that is going to come in handy during labor and delivery!

I also skipped a lot of the yoga/Pilates stuff the book covers because I already do those things regularly anyway. 😂

But I am just starting to get to the part of the book that I’m really interested in, the actual act and process of labor and delivery! Now THAT is what I’m really interested in learning about at this point!

So that’s where I am right now; reading, still running (kind), doing yoga and Pilates, and just being pregnant. 😂

I’m going to post a weekly recap on Sunday just to share what a week in training looks like for me. So be on the lookout for that! But that’s all for now!

Happy hump day! 🐫

~Ashley

2021 Goals

Well happy freaking New Year!

Near the end of December I watched a video in IGTV about all of the major events that happened in 2020 and holy cow there were a lot of them! A lot of them weren’t exactly good and I had even forgotten that half of them happened in 2020. What a fucking year!!

So hopefully we’re done with all of that craziness! I suspect we’ll still be dealing with COVID-19 for a while but with the vaccine coming out hopefully we’ll be able to go back to some kind of semblance of normal. Although I do thing a lot of thing will have changed permanently. Maybe for the better and maybe for the worse. I guess we’ll just have to wait and see.

Anyway! Is anyone else kind of reluctant to write out goals for this year? I don’t exactly do New Year’s resolutions but near the end of every year I like to start thinking about what I want to accomplish in the new year and then write down some goals to get me there. But I literally didn’t accomplish anything that I had written down for 2020. Because I mean, we ALL know what happened. 🙃🤣😭

So this year I’ve found it kinda hard to sit down an write out any kind of goals or plans for the year. Because who the heck knows what’s in store for 2021! Plus I can only assume that we’ll still be dealing with some stuff from 2020. Oh and I’m also pregnant and that changes a lot of things.😂😂

So while trying to remain flexible and realistic, some of my goals are super vague, some of them are small, but when I think about the year ahead this is kinda the general idea of what I’d like to get done!

My Goals For 2021:

  • Keep running for as long as I can but if I have to stop, remain as active as possible during pregnancy
  • Clean out our extra bedroom and make into a nursery/office for Luke (yikes! That’s going to be a big project! 😱)
  • Prep for baby in general!
  • Attempt to prep my body/mind for labor
  • IF POSSIBLE have delivery with no/as little medical intervention as possible. That’s the plan/hope anyway but if I have to I’m willing to deviate from that.
  • Adjust to our new life with a new baby!
  • Recover! Physically, emotionally, mentally.
  • Road trip! If we can we plan on taking baby RJ to Illinois to meet his grandparents, great grandparents, and his great GREAT grandparents ASAP.
  • Assuming everything goes well and I’m feeling up to it, once I’m medically cleared I want to start exercising again. And maybe that won’t be running right away. But exercise has been a big part of my life for a long time and I want to be able to get back to it as soon as possible. Mostly for my own mental health!
  • Drink a beer. And a glass of wine. Ok I know this is kinda stupid because I’m not a big drinker anyway, but I miss being able to do it. 😂
  • If it’s safe, run an IRL race! Probably in the fall. I don’t care the distance! I miss REAL racing and I desperately want to participate in one! Even if I can only do one local 5k.
  • Roll with the changes. There are going to be a lot of them and I know it won’t be easy, but despite the lack of sleep, and adjustments we are going to experience, I think we’re in for a lot of fun and special moments in 2021!

Happy New Year, everyone! We can only go up from here, right?

~Ashley

Running Is Hard

I keep tell myself that running while pregnant is hard. Because it is. But I realized today that that’s not exactly a fair sentiment.

Running is hard period.

Some days, weeks, months, and even years it might feel easier, but it’s still freaking hard. And that’s part of the appeal of running. It’s a challenging thing to do and that’s what makes setting goals and (hopefully) accomplishing them so amazing when it comes to running. Because it’s hard!

So yeah, running is hard all of the time. And for me in my experience thus far, running while pregnant has proved to be a lot more challenging. But when we stepped back and decided to actually look at my situation it makes a lot of sense why I’m struggling with it so much right now. Because on top of the obvious changes that my body is currently going through and the whole growing a whole ass human being thing, I’m currently experiencing other things that are making running, or being physically active at all, super challenging.

Body aches have been a slight issue as far as running goes. Basically every run I set out to do feels like I’m at about mile 8 or 9 of a hilly half marathon. My legs feel sore, tired, and heavy. Usually a nice easy run, a long walk, or even some yoga helps to alleviate that issue. But right now I’ve yet to actually find anything that helps…my legs just always feel sore. Which is particularly frustrating when you know that you haven’t done anything that would actually make them sore. But really aside from it being annoying it’s not a huge deal. And if it were the only issue I was experiencing then I could absolutely push through it.

Lack of good sleep has been another annoying issue that I could probably deal with if it was the only thing I was going through. But between the body aches (there is NO comfortable way to sleep 😭), constantly having to get up to pee, and just being unable to sleep some nights, my quality and quantity of sleep have definitely suffered. Although I have learned that I can actually function pretty well on days where I sleep for about 3 hours, wake up and do stuff for a few hours, then sleep for another 3 hours. So that’s good to know. 😂

But my biggest issue is still fucking food aversions. Eating and even drinking have been a HUGE struggle for me… I’ve had several days where all I can eat is applesauce and occasionally other kinda of fruit because everything just sounds…repulsive? I don’t know, it’s really hard to describe why I can’t eat like anything, but I can’t.

Today was a good eating day for me so far though! For breakfast I had a Panera bagel with cream cheese, for lunch I had another Panera bagel with cream cheese, and for dinner I had one of those little to go hummus and pretzel cups. Seriously, it’s kinda sad that that’s what I’m considering a good day now, but my standards are very very low at this point. 😂

I’m also having a lot of trouble drinking normal tap water? That’s like, mind blowing to me because in my normal non pregnant life I pretty much only drink coffee and tap water. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I can drink anything carbonated though! So I’ve basically been living on unflavored (it has to be UNFLAVORED) sparkling water. Which is doable but a lot more expensive than just drinking tap water…I’ve also been drinking a little bit of soda here and there. I kicked a baaaad soda habit that I had back when I was in high school and I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t a little worried about getting hooked on it again. But at this point I’m just kinda in survival mode. Plus 3 or 4 bottles of Coke a week probably isn’t that bad. Especially considering all of the soda I used to drink when I was younger.

So all of those things combined have just made running a lot more difficult for me. Especially considering I’m the kind of person who absolutely cannot run unless I’ve had a somewhat filling meal 30-40 minutes before hand. And no wonder I’m so tired all of the time! Lack of sleep, trouble eating and not eating well, and not being as hydrated as I usually am, well, it’s kind of a no brainer!

I am still running a little bit though and I’m incredibly grateful for that! Running keeps me sane, more so than other physical activity, so I’m happy that I’m still able to do it a few times every week! And I’ve got my stationary bike to supplement my cardio regimen so there’s that!! Now if only I could motivate myself to do more strength work… That’s probably something that I really need to focus on. Especially now. 🤔

Anyway, I’m sorry I’ve been complaining so much lately. But so far I’ve found pregnancy to be an incredibly uncomfortable, miserable, and frustrating experience and that’s definitely been made even more difficult since I’m not running much. I can’t exactly say I’m making it work but I’m definitely working my way through it! Slowly…only 5 more months to go. 🙃

Also I’m sorry if none of this post makes sense. I’m suffering from some major pregnancy brain on top of everything else. But that’s all for now!

Happy Sunday!

~Ashley

Christmas Time Is Here

Except does anyone else feel like it’s not? Like, it doesn’t feel like Christmas at all? And don’t get me wrong, I’ve done a few Christmas-y things this year but it all just seems…different? Off? I don’t know it’s probably because of COVID and this just absolutely shit show of a year. 🤷🏻‍♀️

At this point I’m not even excited about Christmas (I am however, excited about NEXT Christmas 😂) which is weird because it’s usually my favorite holiday. But at this point I’m just ready for this year to be done and over with! Honestly if I could I would just like, time jump to June 2021 because I hate being pregnant and can’t wait to get it over with. 😂 I’m very much looking forward to no longer having a second person occupying my body. That’ll be nice…

Sleeping is hard. Eating is hard. Drinking water is hard (?!?!). Running is…almost non existent right now. And I’m still waiting on that mythical “burst of energy” and “increased appetite” that’s supposed to happen in the second trimester. Please don’t tell me that it’ll all be worth it in the end (enough people already have). I KNOW that. But that doesn’t make me feel any better. If anything that makes me feel kinda guilty for not enjoying or appreciating it enough. *Sigh* I’m just ready for it all to be over.

Anyway, right now what I’m looking forward to that is much closer in the future is a road trip to Minnesota that Luke and I will be taking next week! One of his brothers is coming to live with us so he can go to college here in Kansas so we’re driving up there to get him!

I haven’t been on a road trip in a while because COVID and I’m very much looking forward to this one! Especially since it’ll probably be the last one we go on for a while! But my mother-in-law is apparently planning some fun stuff for us to do and I am looking forward to that!

Granted we are still very wary of COVID and are aware that traveling right now is the best idea. But we have to get my brother-in-law. Plus don’t plan on stopping unless necessary on our way there. And we’ve got the truck stocked with masks, hand sanitizer, and disinfectant wipes. 😂 And supposedly the activities we are doing will be outdoors but even if we don’t do those cat least we’ll still be able to hang out with some family for a few days!

That’s what’s going on with me right now! Sorry a lot of my posts haven’t been/might not be about running as of late. But my current reality is that I’m not running much. I wish I was but at the same time I’m listening to my body and trying to give it what it needs!

Anyway, happy Winter Solstice! It hasn’t been very wintery here yet but I’m still holding out hope that eventually we’ll get some snow!!

Until next time,

~Ashley ❄️❄️❄️

Longview Lake Half Marathon Recap (Throwback Thursday Anyone?)

It’s been almost 2 months since I’ve done my VERY FIRST HALF MARATHON, and honestly, I still can’t believe I did it! As a former couch potato this was a super big deal for me. Plus it was my first race ever, so I kind of  want to take sometime to look back and write about it.

(This is probably going to be a super long post, so I apologize in advance).

The day before the race I wasn’t even nervous. Like, at all. Even while at packet pick up, getting my stuff ready for the race, and checking the weather almost constantly, I felt very calm.

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Unfortunately that calm feeling went away when it was time to sleep. I tossed and turned all night and when I woke up at 5:30 am I was so nervous I couldn’t eat. I forced down a cup of coffee (with soy milk and honey) and half of a banana but that was all I could manage. And even that kind of made me want to vomit.

Before heading to the race, we stopped at walmart so my husband, brother, and brother-in-law could pick up snacks, and so I could get a jacket that I could get rid of at the starting line (haha I actually ended up keeping the jacket though, because the pockets came in handy).

Once we got to the start/finish (thank goodness they were in the same place), I used the bathroom, warmed up a little bit, and tried to eat a few sport beans. All the while I was feeling like I was going to puke. Next thing I knew, I was lining up in the coral and was seriously wondering what in the world I had gotten myself into.

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I didn’t even notice that you could see the lake from the starting line until I looked at all the pictures.

All too soon it seemed, the national anthem was played, there was a countdown, and then we were off! Once I started running all the fear drained out of me. I was doing what I had come to do, I was going to finish, I was running and that was all that mattered.

The first mile was uneventful. A bit crowded, but since this was only the second year the Longview half has been held, they’re wasn’t a crazy amount of people participating. It didn’t take very long for everyone to spread out a bit. Mile 2 was when things got interesting. Most of it was a hill, and I’m not talking about a nice gentle incline, this was a Big. Ass. HILL. I’m pretty sure I died at least 3 times while going up it and I even walked most of the way up. I’m kinda glad I saved some energy walking it though, it turns out, this was a pretty technical course.

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This guy was waiting at the top of the hill. His “Duck This Hill” sign made the pain totally worth it.

I felt really good for miles 3-4. Honestly they just kinda flew by. There were a few more hills, but nothing I couldn’t handle. But the 5 mile mark I was just hit out of nowhere with super negative thoughts. Most of them involving me not being able to finish. I don’t even know why my brain decided to come up with anything like that, considering I was doing pretty well up until that point. Luckily these thoughts didn’t last long. I started watching other people (which kinda sounds creepy now that I think if it) to take my mind off of things, and around mile 6 a very nice lady was yelling very encouraging things to people. She told me to keep it up and that I looked great and that really boosted my spirits.

At around 7.5 miles I was quite surprised to hear my mom yelling and cheering for me. It turns out my family had planned to surprise me by lining up on the course without telling me! Seeing them was awesome! I asked my husband if he had his water bottle and he felt HORRIBLE when he told me he left it at the car (it was all good though, I was only half a mile from a water station), so I high five’d my dad, gave them a thumbs up and went on my way. I swear I could still hear my mom yelling when I got to the water station.

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My brother-in-law snapped a few photos as I ran past.

At mile 8 my persistent hip injury decided to pain me again. It wasn’t too bad, but it did manage to slow me down quite a bit. Especially on the hills that miles 9-12 were full of. Seriously they’re were lots of hills…At mile 11 I ran into another interesting issue. Crosswinds coming off the lake. Mile 11 was the most scenic part of the course but it was also the most difficult. Running up and down small hills while being blown sideways isn’t exactly my idea of fun.

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Just acting like a total dork for the race photographer at mile 11

At mile 12 I realized I was STARVING and that I hadn’t eaten any of my sports beans while running. So I downed a pack and a half in like, 4 seconds. Haha moments like that are when I really appreciate that I don’t have a super sensitive stomach.

At mile 13 my hip was hurting with every step and something in my left hamstring felt really off, so I ended up walking most of this mile. I’m 100% ok with that though! I ended up walking with this super awesome girl who kept telling me it didn’t matter how fast or slow we finished because we are all winners in God’s eyes. I didn’t realize how badly I needed to hear that until she told me and I will be FOREVER grateful that I walked with her.

Crossing that finish line was a pretty amazing experience! They announced my name and people cheered and clapped for me and the other runner I finished with. Honestly I was surprised that so many people were still there, I was well over the 3 hour mark and I figured most people would have left by then.

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Crossing the finish line with someone I didn’t get a chance to talk to. (I’m the one in the blaze orange hat 😉).

My husband was there waiting for me. He hugged me over the barrier and told me he was proud of me. Haha all I could manage to tell him was “Luke I just did a half marathon!”

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The husband and I after I crossed the finish line and got my medal.

The race provided bananas, chicken noodle soup, and chocolate milk (which I managed to spill all over myself because I was slightly disoriented). That soup was THE BEST soup I’ve had in my entire life, but I think that may have something to do with the fact that I just ran 13.1 miles basically without eating breakfast.

We didn’t sick around long after I ate. My family was throwing me a birthday party that night and they had things to do.

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My finisher’s medal and the awesome sticker my parents’ got me.

My official time was 3:09:32. That’s a little over 9 minutes slower than I would have liked, but between my hip and the technical course I suppose it could have been worse. All in all I had a lot of fun and I totally want to do it again next year!

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My split times.

So, that was kind of long winded and full of pictures! Haha if you actually stuck around and read this whole post I thank you with all of my heart!

Hopefully my next race recap will be shorter. I think I’m just still super excited because this was my first one.

Until next time!

~ Ashley